Thursday, August 22, 2013

Despite everything that may happen, Life is worth it!

So after a very long 4 years I'm about to finish my college journey. 

Which, in and of itself has been a very long adventure.  And I can look back and remember very clearly, finally moving out of the house, starting school, eager and excited for my future.
I remember seeing my life go down a path I never expected - which included a broken heart and soul. The sleepless nights, the nights I cried myself to sleep, the decisions I had to make, the growing up I had to do.
Then there was my starting over years.  Two years ago moving out again on my own, determined to work harder and be even better.  Being demoted at Los Hermanos, and feeling life was so unfair.  But being lucky enough to find work quickly.  Losing it over my Lingustics final because I was so stressed and frustrated.  The multiple goldfish I killed. The fun nights and the good talks I had with all my new friends and roommates.  Passing my first 18 credit semester during the spring semester of 2012. 
Then meeting Trent and falling head over heels in love which was a feeling I thought I had experienced, but never truly had.  
     Four months later after starting school, I let him go and turned him over to the Lord as he went to serve faithfully for 24 months to teach others about the gospel that has brought so much enlightenment and happiness into both of our lives. 
   Continuing my uphill battle with depression, but fought back because of my desire to finish school.  I turned 22, enjoyed some  more fun times with new roommates and friends.   Trent nearly coming home, and how I had to turn that over to the Lord and let Him take care of the situation.
I passed my written exam for my Interpreters Certification.
  The vow to study for BOTH the math placement test as well as my performance test which only half happened.  But I overcame my fear and took both tests.  And while they didn't go the way I wanted I knew that it would be ok,  there may just be other things in the future instead of what I wanted.  (Plus I hadn't been prepared, that's always a good lesson to remember).
I have learned so much in the past few years about trusting my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ.  They both see a bigger picture than I can,  and our Savior understands everything we're going through and is empathetic to our situations.

All in all, I've learned a lot,  I've grown a lot.  I've had to re-build myself spiritually and emotionally,  and like Trent always tells me, I've managed to stay on top.  In the moment, it may not seem that way but if you keep pushing forward and getting up out of bed every morning eventually you'll make it. 
Life has a way of taking you in different paths and teaching you things you never expected to have happen in your life.  Just be brave, and trust in Heavenly Father and Christ.  They'll get you through it, and when you look to the past you'll realize how much you've grown and how there are things you are grateful to have learned despite the pain.  This life is worth it,  we all knew that when we came to this earth.  It honestly takes us remembering who we are and loving the Lord, with Him at our side anything is possible.

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