God gave me you

"I've been a walking heartache, I've made a mess of me, the person I've been lately ain't who I wanna be...."

I know in a couple of years (and maybe even now) it's cliche to have Blake Shelton's song "God gave me you" as your quote on quote "song".  But with Trent and myself, this song holds a lot of meaning for both of us, and we truly believe that God played a role in bringing us together.  That's something I'm eternally grateful for because he has brought so much happiness into my life.  I actually sent him the link to this song via youtube the day he flew home from visiting me last June.  My life has never been the same since that weekend, and both of us know it.  Not to mention, like the first sentence of the song says really applies to us because we both have struggled through the years.
         For instance, when I was 18, newly graduated from High School and had barely started my freshman semester I met a young man who convinced me he was what I needed.  I had no confidence in myself and desperately wanted my happily ever after so I believed him.  But what I thought was my fairy tale ending turned quickly into a nightmare as my then fiancee started becoming heavily emotionally, psychologically, verbally and even sexually abusive to me.  I was able to get away, sort of, due to the help of my parents. But I didn't completely end things until about four-five months when we had an argument and I realized how messed up this situation was.  But the after affects of the abuse still stuck to me, not to mention there were other things that came into play that didn't help my emotional state.  But I no longer believed in myself and I struggled to trust people, especially men.  To this day I can quickly become nervous and uncomfortable around them.  And it's taken a lot of therapy to get me to the point I'm at now.  But there was a lot of points where I could have just walked away from everything I knew.  Gave up on everyone, but I knew that the gospel was true, and I started on a path to figure out for myself what my testimony was.
           Trent on the other hand wasn't raised LDS.  His parents divorced when he was three and he's had a lot of things to work through in his life.  He's made huge mistakes that he regrets but through the gospel has been able to find the peace of mind that comes from repentance and the love of our Savior Jesus Christ.
      I very much remember the night I told him about what had happened my freshman year, and that same night he told me of some of the things that he'd been through as well.  Looking at him now, it's hard to see him as the person he described to me that night.  He has really changed and become the man he needs to be, and I feel the mission will help with that as well.  But Trent has told me, that what I told him that night instead of chasing him off as it had some men only made him love me more because it helped him to see who I truly was and who I had become through my trials.
     Needless to say, we have been able to be there for each other since then.  He is truly the person I can laugh, cry, vent, or just be myself with.  I've cried to him countless times over the phone when some days just became too hard to think through it all.  He also has been so patient with me when I have questioned his motives and mis-interpreted them as something else because of my emotional problems that occasionally pop up.

    The last thing I want to say, is to relate to what I said at the beginning that we feel that Heavenly Father played a role in bringing us together.  Here are some of the reasons why we believe that:

1. I mentioned in my first post that Trent is good friends with my brother-in-law Scott, and that Scott met Trent near the end of his mission in Columbus Ohio.  What I didn't mention is that Scott and Trent met ONCE the entirety of Scott's mission, and it was right at the very end.  Scott didn't convert him, didn't get a lot of time to know him they just happened to hit it off.  Which I suppose is understandable since Scott is very easy to get along with, and their personalities are the same.  But they weren't buddies, and Trent to this day isn't entirely sure why he decided to call Scott the weekend he came to Salt Lake.  He has several friends in the area, but for some reason he felt to contact Scott.

2. When he came to Salt Lake the weekend I met him, that wasn't planned.  He was driving semi's across country and had some mechanical problems in Utah of all places, and they were near the Salt Lake stop so he stopped there for repairs.  That's when he called Scott and asked if he could spend time with him and have someone to go to church with.

3. I wasn't planning on coming home that Sunday.  I was dating someone else and we had gone to his place for dinner or something but his parents weren't doing anything so Tyler (my boyfriend) suggested we go to my parent's place and visit with them.  We knew Scott was going to be there anyway, and we were all High School friends.  Normally, I would have suggested we stay at his place and do something else because I was tired of being at home so much, but instead I agreed with him.

4. We hardly talked to each other while he was there. And then promptly forgot about each other after he had left.  I didn't have a facebook account, and he gave up after trying to find me.  Six months later though, before my sister and Scott were married he found me and added me on facebook. I normally don't accept friend requests of people I don't know very well, but for some reason I did.

I truly love this man, he makes my world complete, he is my support when I am down, and loves me like no tomorrow.